92 degrees in May??!

I'm beginning to feel like I'm back in 29 Palms! It's been pretty hot this week, at least we're not adjusted to it yet. Along with the heat we're getting the humidity that's completely new to me. I don't mind hot weather, but you add humidity to the mix, and you have a whole different type of heat. To beat the heat, we've been hitting the pool after Jesse gets out of school. He loves being in the water, as does Bailey. She get soo excited when she gets in, she squeals!! It's so cute.

I'm feeling much better today. I blame my homesickness on PMS. I always get over emotional during "that" time. I had my official weigh in this morning. Since I've started working with this trainer at the gym....1 week ago, I've lost almost 6 lbs!!! It's great. The lack of caffiene was hard the first couple of days, so then she says...go ahead have a cup of coffee if you want. So today I did. It made me so jittery, I don't even want it now! Too much caffiene in my system makes me crabby anyway so it's for the better I think.

Tomorrow starts phase 2 of a 3 phase program. I'm told that this part is where I'm going to lose the most weight in a short period of time. We'll see!! I had assumed I'd be feeling deprived, but I don't. In fact I have a hard time eating ALL of the food on this plan. Somedays I have to force it. I know I have to eat it, because I'm already eating minimal calories and fat, so it's important.

Jesse is leaving for his dad's one month from this weekend. I'm so anxious and sad about it. I know it's "only" 6 weeks, but to me it's a long time. I have to send him on a plane ALL BY HIMSELF!! I get worried that John won't return him, and I know it's probably crazy of me to think that. I can't help it. I'm a mother! Jesse will get to meet his little half brother for the first time. I think he's pretty excited about it, he's such a good big brother. He cried to me the other night that he would miss Bailey too much and didn't want to spend that much time at his dad's because "what if Bailey forgets who he is??" Poor Kid! I assured him that Bailey will remember her big brother, and 6 weeks really isn't that long. It's hard sharing him. I always kinda hoped that John and I would live close enough that he could see Jesse more often, and not take him for long periods of time. Such is life!

It's time to decide what to cook for dinner. Tonight will be official "cheat" night since Phase 2 starts tomorrow. I know I'm not supposed to, but I'd really like to have a couple of drinks tonight after the kids are in bed. It's been a long week with school and such. So I figure one night isn't going to hurt anything. It's not like I can eat that much anyway!

Really?

I had this huge blog. and for some reason it just deleted! AHHH!

I'll have to re write it in a bit..that makes me really mad.

Taco Tuesdays...

It's cinco de mayo today, probably the first that we won't celebrate. What's the point? For us, it was more of an excuse to drink margaritas all night. This year, I'm on a diet, one that at this point doesn't allow sugar, or tacos for that matter!

I am a little bummed, but it's just another day. Every year since we've been together, I guess that makes it the 3rd we've celebrated. Last year I was pregnant with peanut, so I got to be the DD, oh the joys!

I skipped the gym today. I guess you could say I'm a little on the down side. Maybe it's the lack of caffiene, sugar, but I think it's just plain homesickness. I miss my family alot, and I hate the fact that my parents can't see the kiddos that often. It's really hard living so far away home, but we've created a family and a home here and I'm thankful for that. Doesn't really make it easier though.

There seems to be a thunderstorm coming in, and my monkey will be mad when he comes home from school and we can't go swimming. I'm hoping it clears up before this afternoon when we want to go.

Peanut is currently slobbering all over my arm, I guess that means it's time to go!