92 degrees in May??!

I'm beginning to feel like I'm back in 29 Palms! It's been pretty hot this week, at least we're not adjusted to it yet. Along with the heat we're getting the humidity that's completely new to me. I don't mind hot weather, but you add humidity to the mix, and you have a whole different type of heat. To beat the heat, we've been hitting the pool after Jesse gets out of school. He loves being in the water, as does Bailey. She get soo excited when she gets in, she squeals!! It's so cute.

I'm feeling much better today. I blame my homesickness on PMS. I always get over emotional during "that" time. I had my official weigh in this morning. Since I've started working with this trainer at the gym....1 week ago, I've lost almost 6 lbs!!! It's great. The lack of caffiene was hard the first couple of days, so then she says...go ahead have a cup of coffee if you want. So today I did. It made me so jittery, I don't even want it now! Too much caffiene in my system makes me crabby anyway so it's for the better I think.

Tomorrow starts phase 2 of a 3 phase program. I'm told that this part is where I'm going to lose the most weight in a short period of time. We'll see!! I had assumed I'd be feeling deprived, but I don't. In fact I have a hard time eating ALL of the food on this plan. Somedays I have to force it. I know I have to eat it, because I'm already eating minimal calories and fat, so it's important.

Jesse is leaving for his dad's one month from this weekend. I'm so anxious and sad about it. I know it's "only" 6 weeks, but to me it's a long time. I have to send him on a plane ALL BY HIMSELF!! I get worried that John won't return him, and I know it's probably crazy of me to think that. I can't help it. I'm a mother! Jesse will get to meet his little half brother for the first time. I think he's pretty excited about it, he's such a good big brother. He cried to me the other night that he would miss Bailey too much and didn't want to spend that much time at his dad's because "what if Bailey forgets who he is??" Poor Kid! I assured him that Bailey will remember her big brother, and 6 weeks really isn't that long. It's hard sharing him. I always kinda hoped that John and I would live close enough that he could see Jesse more often, and not take him for long periods of time. Such is life!

It's time to decide what to cook for dinner. Tonight will be official "cheat" night since Phase 2 starts tomorrow. I know I'm not supposed to, but I'd really like to have a couple of drinks tonight after the kids are in bed. It's been a long week with school and such. So I figure one night isn't going to hurt anything. It's not like I can eat that much anyway!